What am I doing?

There are many questions I ask myself through life and one seems to be asked over and over.  What am I doing? What am I doing with my life? What am I doing with myself?  What am I doing?  I am certain others have asked the same question and some it seems so easy of an answer.  My answer has not been provided, or it has been tainted in I way I am unable to see what it is.  I feel as if my life is slipping away from me and I have not even begun to live it.  I want more out of life and more out of myself.  It is the fear that is keeping me from it?  Or the pure unknowing of what is to come?  Why must I keep myself from pursuing the things my heart wants? It is not a normal life I want but an extraordinary one. I need to start living as if "this is who I am.  This is what my life is about.  And this is what I'm going to do.  Nothing will stop me from achieving my destiny.  I will not be denied?" -Quoted from Awaken the Gian Within.